Cara Delevingne has opened up about her battle with depression, which left her feeling suicidal during her teenage years, to Esquire magazine.
The model-cum-actress and star of new film Suicide Squad said that there was a period of her life when she, “didn’t want to exist anymore.”
She said, “When it got to being a teenager and all the hormones and the pressure and wanting to do well at school I had a mental breakdown.
“I was suicidal. I couldn’t deal with it anymore. I realized how lucky and privileged I was, but all I wanted to do was die. I felt so guilty because of that and hated myself because of that, and then it’s a cycle. I didn’t want to exist anymore. I wanted for each molecule of my body to disintegrate. I wanted to die.”
The British star also added that she never wants to rely on medication.
Speaking about the day she stopped taking them when she was 18, she said:
“That week, I lost my virginity, I got into fights, I cried, I laughed.”